Hello, everyone!

How y'all doing? I'm doing alright, nothing fancy. Just like the title, yes, I'm here after too much caffeine. Can you guess how much is "too"much for me? More than one tea spoon is already too much for me. For one tea spoon, I can feel the energy boost and ended up with insomnia if I ended up not using them. Therefore, here I'm. I don't know what to used it for since, I'm actually kind of sleepy for anything practical.

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Recently, my result for last semester came out. For some reasons, I feel so hopeful about my result. I was thinking that I could made it to the dean list once again because I kind of worked so hard last semester. It's actually kinda funny. Since I'm so full of hope, I waited for a few hours, trying to distract myself with chores. I don't know why I think that checking out my result a little bit late would make me into the dean list. Unfortunately, the luck wasn't on my side. However, I did improve compared to last semester. My grade did went up so, still there's tiny bit of happiness in me. I think thing that made me happy the most that day is how Ayah said congratulations despite not being in the dean list. He said about wanting to celebrate and I asked why? Since I didn't even made it into the dean list, so it doesn't make sense, right? To celebrate and all but he said that I maintained my grade and that's more than enough for him. Well, I guess as long as you're not mad than, I'm alright.

I guess I need to put up some more effort next semester. 

Other than that, there's nothing much. Oh, there's one. I recently started my Tiktok account. It's been a month, though since my last post but here's a shameless plug anyway.

@sbrpov

Lazy, productive Tuesday ##lifeisstillgoingon ##vlog ##tuesdayvlog

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There's some habit about myself that I just cannot avoid. I always have a sudden burst of energy to do something on certain period and kind of abandoned it afterwards. For example, Tiktok. I think it last for like a week. I'm not a person with many hobbies in the first place so I don't really know what to post anymore. Still, I enjoy it a lot. So, please look forward for more contents, just in case, you feel like following. 

I think because it's night, I'm lost as how to end this post. I feel so sleepy for some reason. Anyway, take care of yourself very well. Sanitize yourself regularly also, don't forget to wear your mask. Also, put your mental health on priority too. Seek for help, guidance, or anything necessary if you ever need it. 

Thank you for spending your time reading this!

Love,

 Hello, everyone!

How's everyone doing? I'm doing alright, nothing fancy there's barely anything to do that my brother is already working. Dah takde orang nak suruh-suruh dah. Also, yes! I did change my blog theme once again. After a few days after I posted my last entry. I realized the theme that I use is full of error which cause some of my post being cut into half, not showing the content, and some of post format being out of place. Other than that, it's also a little bit too plain. It feels like I didn't put any type of effort at all. But, now, I think I'm pretty satisfied with it. There's more to learn about all the coding for theme, indeed.

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I actually got my first appointment on July but the place happened to be quite a distance from my house which take around 20 minutes from my house and during that time, my parent also wasn't here and GRAB only allow a single person ride. Regardless, whether or not I was able to ride a GRAB, ayah would not allow me considering the circumstances also, the fees are pretty high too. Hence, I cancelled the appointment and wait for another appointment. Which then, come Selangor Vaccine Programme (SELVAX).

I got to know about the SELVAX through my aunt and after that, me and my brother booked an appointment right away on 10th August at Tropicana Gardens Mall. Basically, SELVAX is an innitiative by Selangor government to encourage the citizen of Selangor take their vaccines and the vaccines given was Sinovac. Nice, right? I actually just want to get vaccinated as soon as possible. Firstly, because I'm afraid if I dragged it for too long circumstances like my first appointment would come again. Also, my brother need to work. So, I want to take advantage while he's still free from any jobs and get busy later.

First Dose | 10th August 2021

That Tuesday morning, we woke up super early as we are unsure of the setting of Tropicana Gardens Mall. We did try to find the place a day before and it's super close from our house. Barely five minutes. However, we didn't try to approach it, just watch it from a far. It's pretty noticeable so, after we saw the signboard we went home since we are already confident with the path.

I was prepared for the worse actually. I've read some review on Twitter saying the process at Tropicana Gardens Mall take a very long time. So, I brought my power bank with me, just in case. I also wore a flannel since I don't have cardigans so, I just grab whatever in my closet. When we arrived at the mall, we thought we're early. Turn out there's already quite a crowd at the center of the mall. We were basically lost since, everyone seems so busy. Luckily, there's one volunteer approach us to filled up the form for vaccination.

We need to climbed up another few floors and we're met with waiting areas that I could say, empty. Since everything worked so fast, nobody is waiting there. When it's my turn to get my vaccination. Mind you. I'm aware of the situation where doctors forgot press the syringe and I bet these people that vaccinated me also aware of it. So, they explained the process one by one and show me the syringe after they jabbed me. Rergardless, I also braced myself to look at the time they jabbed me. I'm not afraid of needles but the act looking at it kinda odd since I never did it in my entire life.

After we're done with all the vaccination process, we're brought to the 15-minutes waiting area. We wait for 15 minutes and we're done. They also had volunteer to take pictures for you at the photobooth, though but I did not go. Why? During that time my top priority is to eat. I'm so hungry. So, we went back and order Foodpanda. Self-reward they said.

Actually, the process take more or less 20 minutes? It went by so fast and the only time I was like actually waiting is during that 15 minutes waiting time. The volunteers are friendly, not super but they approach me first so, I would say they're friendly and work very fast. Except for this one pak cik baju bunga. I really don't like him.

Second Dose | 31st August 2021

Yes, I took my second dose on Merdeka! 

Lots of promotions but I didn't grab any. I'm super broke during that time.

Anyway, the process was pretty much the same except the waiting areas before getting vaccinated is actually being used. Since everyone is getting their second dose, so, it's pretty packed. The highlight of my second dose story is

I forgot to bring my IC!

Can't you believe that? Who in Malaysia would forgot to bring their IC on such an important day? Yeah, I did. I actually did packed everythig the night before but the only thing in my mind is vaccine card, vaccine card and that's literrally the only thing that I packed in my purse. Fortunately, I can still get my vaccine. I thought the volunteer about to get mad at me but he said, "Takpe". So, I went by the same process as the first dose and went home.

I did took picture, though. My brother did but it looks weird.

Anyway, here it is. I'm- The angle looks weird and it's blurry.

Overall, the experience I would give 8/10 because things are scary and I forgot to bring my IC. A solid eight for the process and volunteers. The rest of the score would be due to myself. Anyway, everything way beyond my expectations. It went by so fast and I didn't have like bad experience throughout the vaccination programme. It's great!

By the way, I can proudly announce that, I'm fully vaccinated and in another ten days I can dine in like norms, heck yeah! Auto kebal! Not necessarily but still it lessen the effect of COVID-19 on your body so, bro and sis, go take your vaccines! There's no 5G chips in it. I tried to charge my phone there, alright and nothing happened, of course.  I'm afraid of what this uncles and aunts believe what have been spread online especially, Whatsapp. Therefore, lookout for those elders around you and encourage them to get their vaccines so, we can live normally again.

I really want to go back to my campus, but it seems like I'm not going back at all, obviously.  

Last but not least, everyone keep practicing the SOP and get your vaccines. And please, take care of yourself. Physically, mentally, everything-ly. 

Thank you for reading!

Love,

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How's everyone doing? I'm doing great as ever. I recently just finished my fourth semester and wrapped with International Trade as my last paper. Gracefully ending my third year, I'm nervous as hell to start my fifth semester that will start in October. Of course, there are so much times to prepare but I'm definitely not resting this semester break since I joined some major programs under my campus. I'll try to update it from time to time. So, please look forward to it.

By the way, how do you like the new look on my blog? Is it alright? 

I put a lot of thought whether or not to change it but after some time, I believe it is for the best.

Truth to be told, during my start of  'reflection: a small journal', I'm in darkest time. I'm always overwhelmed by stress and burnout due to personal reasons that are unexplainable at the moment. The blog is basically my escape to talk shit (Nicely said, rant) about this and that. I, also read other people post because I want to think about the direction of this blog going. I saw people doing review so, I tried but I realized I have yet more to learn. I feel like things I wrote becoming more dishonest as I tried to be 'someone else'. The content became vague as it is not the 'me' in the entries but a person I wished to be.

As a result to that, I became pent up with thoughts that I'm unable to pour during those period which, eventually, cause me to suffer. Becoming impatient, short-tempered, tired and, back to square one, burnout and stress. Due to that, I decided to delete the dishonest past me because for me, it's basically false memories of mine. Of course, it is a shame to delete the entries but it is always for the best.

Other than that, I'm also super busy. There are so many assignments and tests for this semester. The subject also pretty heavy too. Although I learnt a lot, I feel like I did not gain anything? If that make sense. Usually, when I'm in campus, I did notes to keep myself afloat with the subject but with everything online, the motivation wasn't there. At first, I'm so pumped to start the semester but as the time passed by the efforts become less and less. Additionally, since there's also no tests, we're given so much assignments. 

My thought on this is actually it's fair enough because there are many possibilities that students would cheat so, giving more assignments does make sense. Hence, I kind of accept it the way it is. Alhamdullilah, most subjects have only max four assignments so, personally, for me, it's alright. Our experiences might differ from each other. I've seen people cried their heart out because there's just to many works from their lecturers. I can't say much about that side of the story because I'm not the one experienced it.

Anyway, I hope you can look forward to the new changes in my blog. All the explanations about how I came up with the name will be told later in my about page. As for now, thank you for reading!